the feeling of making wrong decision sucks like ive involved many people and they're all affected by me. for once in my 18 years i feel like im hit to rock bottom feeling useless and sad but i cannot do anything much except to wait for time to pass afap to go back to my usual self. it doesnt matter if im happy when im out, cos when im back to my crib i feel the same old thing again. its back to me myself and I. its time to grow up LL. i realized no one can understand me more than myself and ignorance is bliss for the moment.